On the last day of the festival this year we created ‘The Furnace’. It was a workshop based on an ancient Mesopotamian ritual where the leaders are taken from the city and asked to answer for where they did not live up to their ideals. Inspired by this notion, John, Jordan and I sat in the middle of a Circle open to feedback; for three hours!
As the name suggests the process was intense. I loved the sense of vulnerability and action packed nature of the Circle. I loved coming together in service of more truth and accountability. I loved the group navigating many perspectives and feeling states simultaneously. At the same time, deeper inside I knew that I had not been able to fully receive the gift that was being reflected to me.
For this gift to become clear time has been necessary.
The struggle to hear
After the festival I kept returning to the criticism about how we welcome newcomers into the community.
At the time I struggled with the feedback.
I felt the pain of not being seen. I felt protective around how much I have already contributed to bringing people into Circling and Surrendered Leadership (SL for short).
The feedback kept whispering to me.
I was reacting as if the feedback threatened our vision of the practice, and the unique transmission of Surrendered Leadership. I felt how much capacity it often takes to consistently transmit our practice while it is not being honoured or understood. However, with hindsight, I see the courage and passion that the participants of this Furnace Circle brought to question how we welcome newcomers.
Insight into my own limitation
Since the festival I have gained insight that helps me see the vulnerability that was having me protect myself.
The feedback pointed me towards an unknown, a place I might meet a new dragon. This means a place that both challenges me and shows me my limitations.
At the same time, this has encouraged me to look at what it truly means to encounter newcomers as they come to try our practice.
Facing the dragon
It was Jordan Peterson’s Biblical Lecture Series that helped me understand the dragon I was avoiding in the feedback. These lectures have inspired me in how to understand deep structures in being and the unknown.
Peterson has created a modern psychological understanding of the biblical narrative. In one lecture he talks about Abraham and how God had instructed him to welcome strangers into his house. In Peterson’s perspective God represents all of reality, the essential being that includes all we know, and all that is beyond our knowing. Abraham is then a symbol of someone who through wise action has become attuned to this essential being. This attunement is symbolised by him being able to hear God's voice. From this perspective the biblical story is pointing us towards a deep wisdom in the structure of being that tells us to welcome strangers.
This ancient wisdom makes a deep impression on me and wakes me up to how I can never know the full transcendent potential in a stranger; or the hidden dangers. The stranger comes from a complete unknown. It is easier to keep them at a distance, to stay slightly guarded or suspicious. It is also easier to stay in my own circle that I know shares my moral outlook.
This story of Abraham parallels the feedback we received in the festival on how we welcome newcomers.
Sacrificing the known
It takes a real sacrifice to let go of the known—the comfort of being with those you are at home with—and invite in a stranger. Now consider giving them the same hospitality you would give your best friend or family.
In the biblical story Abraham shows the highest sacrifice by killing his best calf to feed strangers. God (reality or being) rewards him with divine gifts for his ability to give himself in this way.
This metaphor hit me. I was not giving my best calf to the strangers in this festival. And I certainly don’t give my best calf to strangers in my life in general. This has humbled me into seeing how I have been turning away from being, that in the moments I choose my own comfort over greeting those I have yet to meet, I am becoming less attuned to reality and the gifts it brings me.
Am I willing to sacrifice?
I am so at home with the people whom I know share the same morals or principles. This is understandable‚ it is amazing what happens in these connections.
However, I shy away from a full encounter with many newcomers/strangers, and I often am not able to sacrifice my favourite calf to welcome them in.
This sacrifice of the calf could symbolise some of the time I can spend with those that have most nourished me in the past.
The Real Challenge of the First Encounter
It takes a significant sacrifice to do what Abraham did. The real challenge of a first encounter becomes more clear as we look deeper into it. A stranger is a potent mirror: maybe they will reject me, maybe they will not understand or judge my values, and worse still maybe the conversation will be trivial and awkward.
This last point—that the connection could be trivial—doesn't sound such a risk at first glance. I actually think it is huge.
When you know what is possible in connection (even intuitively), it feels painful to walk away with only superficial contact. It is already worth it to share a heartwarming story, a smile, or the simple interest to know each other better. However, this is only the beginning of the potential. A meeting can be a portal to the transcendent, a confrontation of souls, a dance with archetypes, a touching of a raw human togetherness, or the realisation of shared purpose and possibilities to trade creativity.
When all this is possible falling into an awkward, polite, unmet moment is a real tragedy.
This realisation can sting even more when we see how many moments in our lives we have missed opportunities to be transformed by an encounter with a stranger.
Avoiding real contact?
I believe the significance of meeting someone, plus the chances of missing the mark, makes real contact easy to avoid.
Instead of meeting it head on I can project my own inadequacy on their inability to understand what I am about.
This projection is actually only creating more turning away, meekness and distance from my own yearning soul.
Daring to meet strangers
This new insight leads me to a new calling: to step into the unfamiliar, to notice my fear, my arrogance, my seeking comfort and dare to meet strangers in all walks of life.
This means showing up with the shopkeeper, the person asking for money on the street, the taxi driver.
This means leaning with fullness towards those willing to come and try Circling and Surrendered Leadership.
In our practice community I can sense new creative structures, led by committed leaders, supporting newcomers to experience what is dear to us.
But these new structures are only meaningful to me if they are truly from the heart; if they touch a deeper layer in us about what it really means to encounter a new human being.
This is what inspires me as I step into the infinite possibilities of encountering those I am yet to meet.
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